Friday, September 15, 2017

Chugging Through

I'm working on it.
Welcome back, friends. Busy times are upon me and I haven't had a chance to sit down and type anything to you. I have updated my PODCAST, but not the blog here. I feel like I owe it to you guys a bit to keep you visually informed as well... so here we are.

Life is okay. I had a rough last week. Then last weekend was busy with the kid's birthday and my dad/sister visiting. Then this week was rough again. Just been going round and round with some soul cutting anger and stress in some various things. But I am working hard on stuff and I got a vacation weekend a mere 24 hours away and I am going to enjoy the fuck out of it. I need it. I really do.

But I'm trying to keep sane and happy....

For example, a couple weeks ago I bought and assembled this. I haven't bought Legos in years and always have desired to. So I saw this in the store and said FUCK IT! I'm glad I did.
 Not only am I enjoying some childish toys, but I am listening to music I used to jam on when I was younger. And I reached out for some freelance work and I am happy to tease that I am back on a sketch card set. I don't think I can say what it is yet, but its one of the most popular properties outside of Star Wars right now. I am about 1/2 way done penciling the cards. I chose a small batch just to make sure I could do them without any troubles. I'll show them off when I can.

I also did this:

Finally! A cover to my new upcoming erotica book is revealed! Kickstarter soon!
I am putting the finishing touches on the book and it will launch soon.

I'm spending time with family...

Lily and I.

Lily, Luna and their boss.

Scott Bot opens a birthday present (he turned 9 this year)

Little James opens one of his birthday presents. He turned 5 years old. Wow!

The boys playing together.
And I also visited another group of old family....

Did a quick sketch of the Pleasant Life gang. I miss them.
I'm hoping that my efforts to clear out the bullshit from my life are starting to harden and shape itself. The roots are deep and should last through future tests. The mountain is being climbed. I know what I have to do and how I want to get it done. I have goals (personal, professional, creative, etc) and I'm juggling them all. This train is chugging through. Come what may.

Thanks for coming back to visit me here. Kickstarter for EROTIC ZONE and other art news is coming very soon!!!!!

--T

Tuesday, September 05, 2017

Labor Day Pains


STREEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!

Heh... anyway, welcome back, folks. Yeah its been a crazy weekend. I did relax a little.

On Saturday, I went to my co-worker's house, where we all collectively played the re-release of NIGHT TRAP (videos coming) and then beat MEGA MAN 2. Took me 30 years but its finally done. Check that off the list!
After a long week of work, I had planned on getting a lot of shit done around me. I managed to clean the car and finally move around and organize my shelves of books and comics at home. Saturday night I hung with co-workers playing video games. But then when I got home I was sick and vomiting. Something about Little Caeser's Hot N Ready pizza sauce, I can't handle anymore. The man in my tummy hates me.

Sunday I got the kids the majority of the day and then spent some time with D getting groceries and doing stuff around the house.

Monday, I got up early and got the last of the boys' bday presents and got them all wrapped. Then I finally sat down and got some artworking done. I got 5 commissions fully penciled, inked and halfway colored. I also inked and scanned the Erotic Zone cover and a couple other pieces for Starslam 3... one of which might be the cover. I am not sure yet. I'll color it and we'll see.

This week I got a ton of stuff to get done. More artworking, laundry, keeping the house straight... my dad is coming this week to stay with us over the weekend and he's bringing my sister. Also this weekend I will have the boys. It will be a full house in our tiny apartment, that is for sure.

Anyway, just giving an update. Barring any major event to come this week, I might be MIA for a while due to being busy. I hope everyone's weekend was great. I'll see you on the flipside. The EROTIC ZONE book is almost complete!!! Kickstarter soon.

Cheers, T

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Apocalyptic Mind Debris

Oh man does this look good or what????
Welcome back my friends.

This is literally the only moment I've had the opportunity to sit at my desk since this time last week. Had the boys over the weekend and every day beyond that has been overtime at the day job or just been too damn busy to get things rolling, creatively or otherwise. So that is why you haven't heard anything about my new book's Kickstarter (that I teased two posts ago). But rest assured it is coming. I got a few last things to do... some pinups to draw and color that I want to include in the book but I want to make sure its 100% in the bag before I start trying to sell it. So maybe another week or two at the most. I do have some commissions to finish from the previous sale I did and I got another one this week from a longtime trusted client I always do work for, even when I am not taking any work.

So I really haven't had much opportunity to get work done. But this weekend coming up I should get some breathing room and I hope to take advantage of it. 

All work and no play make Adam go something something......
While I don't have much time or energy to go out and play and live some life, I get to enjoy other people doing it around me. My co-worker just flew to Seattle for a wedding this past weekend and asked if I had any ideas of what he and his wife could do. Immediately I suggested the Sci-Fi museum. They took me up on the idea and brought back a picture of something that I would kill to see there. Probably the main reason I'd go there... the TOS Enterprise Bridge set!!!! (Well, what is left of it) Check it out: 

Oh, to be there and see that... I would weep openly.
At home, our cable bill raised $22... because my move in special from last year expired. So I called the cable company to see what other packages they had... because if I am going to pay that much I might as well get my dick sucked a bit. So we upgraded from 25 MB internet to 75MB and 10 channels to 140 channels. Last night I sat down for the first time in three years and actually watched TV after we got home. Immediately the commercials pissed me off. Heh! I never watch TV for that reason. But I did promise myself I would check out a few football games this season. I didn't watch any last year. I'm not MASSIVE into sports but I do love a good game now and then. Something about football season turns my nerd into a little bit of testosterone flowing in this old dude and dare I say, I become a tiny bit of a "man".... heh! 

Funny shirt from an indie cartoonist. I forget the guy's name but his shirts are funny. Look him up!
When the kids were sleeping this past weekend, D and I finally caught up with Preacher. Holy shit, has it turned awesome! They are nailing Herr Starr so well and the new stuff they have added to the show really adds a lot to it. I'm very satisfied with what they are doing.

We also watched an indie horror flick called "House of the Devil," which was a decent watch. Very slow paced but stylized in the 70-80s horror movie style (ala Rosemary's Baby, The Omen, etc). Worth a visit.

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Okay, filled you in on a little bit of what is going on around me... now some discussion on actual artworking!!!!

Yes, I am finishing up the new erotica book. More hardcore pron from me. It will launch soon, I promise. I'm getting that creative mindset flowing again and shit is starting to ramp up. I even considered doing some comic shows to get the juices flowing again. I heard of a show in my old hometown of Mt. Pleasant, but artist alley tables are sold out. They have some more expensive ones available but I don't want to invest that much money into it. It was more of a whimsy to chase for a day. Maybe next year. But I am excited to tell you guys that I did sign up for MSU COMICS FORUM for next year February. So after skipping this year, I will make a triumphant return next year. So that is a start.

Also my new sketchbook has been very active: 



This week my mission is to finish all commissions and the pinups for THE EROTIC ZONE and get it all pdf'd and ready for the printer. THEN the Kickstarter will launch. Might take a few days or a couple weeks, but I will get it done.

May the spirit of Bettie Page guide my carpal tunnel-stricken hands to finish this erotica that the world so desperately needs! 

My spirit animal!
Next time we talk I hope to have it all figured out.

---Luvs, T

Thursday, August 24, 2017

C-C-C-CHANGES

Hey friends!

My favorite time of year is now upon us. FALL!!! Exciting shit going on. Weather is calming down a bit. Halloween is right around the corner. Football comes back. We're closer to big family meals like Thanksgiving and Christmas! Its all exciting stuff. And you can feel the weather change and other such things going on all around you. You try to ride the wave and see what comes.

Here I am observing the eclipse in Lansing, MI.... whole lotta clouds. (sigh)

Took my girl out for Mexican food. She enjoyed it.
My boys are all going back to school. 

Scott-bot goes back to the same school.

Lil' James starts a new one.

Some new clothes I got them for their school year. And their birthday is next month so no doubt they will get more!
I decided I needed some small changes in my own life as well. I have been the same forever and maybe its time to adopt some small new things and attitudes to cultivate...

This is a collection of socks and undies, some of which I've had for well over a decade... the socks, maybe even longer than that. They have served me well, but I just wanted a change..

They are now all replaced with new undies and a ton of new socks, new shade, new fluffiness. I've been wanting to toss all my old socks and things for years and haven't got around to it. And now its all new. YAY!
And now, something I've wanted to do for over 20 years...

Ut oh....

I remember watching WOODSTOCK 94 back in the day, and how I wanted to dye my hair all sorts of weird colors. I never did. I couldn't. The jobs at the time wouldn't allow it. Plus, I know my dad woulda gave me a bit of stink eye for it. I wanted to dye the hair green, red, purple... but I never did. Too afraid. "It wasn't me," I'd think. So I sat on the idea for almost 25 years... Until this week!

Its a shade of purple. I've never dyed my hair before. I swore I wouldn't. But I did. And I am pretty happy with the results. It makes the inner teenager inside me swell up with some pride. I even got a couple stares at me yesterday as I was out and about. Heh... "Friggin' scary youth fucker!" Take THAT, society! Heh, but seriously, this was an embrace of a long never accomplished fantasy of mine. And I quite like it. Not sure where it will go from here. I got more dye and things. Maybe I'll do other colors. Maybe I'll stick with this. Maybe.. maybe.. maybe... But I like the idea of an open ended idea. Something to chase.

I'm trying hard to be positive. I'm trying to stay in a happy mindframe. There are things around me that make me or those I care about have a bad day. Sometimes you gotta stand up and say your piece. Sometimes its best to ignore it. But sometimes you just gotta put on a silly mask and make someone you care about laugh.

...maybe that is exactly what I am here for.
Some changes are forced on you. You drift through and accept it. But you can change yourself and how you approach things if you want to. You get what you want out of life by how you approach it. That is what I am striving for.

So get crafty. Get funny. Get loud. Disconnect from the bullshit and the toxic people and places around you. Ignore the news and the talking heads and the idiots who will never care to grow and learn or even accept. Change is good. Change is constant. Change is all.

Plus, its only two months until Halloween. Better start watching horror movies and making costumes!

--T

Monday, August 21, 2017

Announcing New Book: THE EROTIC ZONE!!!

Promo Art for THE EROTIC ZONE
Hello friends!

I said last time that I would get to drawing and I meant it. I did four new STARSLAM 3 pages and a few things for this thing... my new project revealed!

THE EROTIC ZONE is a smaller graphic novel that collects six erotica short stories I've done (some released digitally via Starslam Kickstarter extras, some not... All 18 Porn World Weekly comic strips (Sunday Style), 16 brand new Pinups (mostly music themed/related!) and a slew of erotica commission work that I have not shared anywhere. The book will be a homage to a certain old TV Show with me as a "host" introducing the stories in a comedic nature.

The book will be just under 100 pages, full color, Standard Tradebook size and yes, FULLY ADULT IN NATURE! (P's and V's and full penetration shown)

The Kickstarter will launch this week. There will be digital only options, signed book options, commissions and sketched book options and retailer incentives, with prices going as low as $5.

I made this book to clear the vault as it were to make room for the final STARSLAM book.... which is coming, BTW. I'm well about 3/4ths done with the artwork and the coloring is right behind that. Just gotta word balloon it and assemble it. So likely done before Xmas if all goes well. But for now, to generate excitement and funds to pay my new colorist, I offer this new erotica stand alone!

People that know me and my work through things like STARSLAM know I approach my erotica from a "female friendly" angle. The stories contained in this new book reflect that, also a playful nature and outlook on sex/sexuality and storytelling. But it is indeed erotic and full of lustful actions and characters. You'll definitely be getting your bang for your buck!

KICKSTARTER LAUNCHES THIS WEEK! Stay tuned...

Here are some sample (no spoiler) images to wet your whistle....








KICKSTARTER THIS WEEK! Stay tuned...

--T

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Its Going to be Okay


I hugged Doug Stanhope.

Let me start at the beginning...

This week sucked. Busy at the day job. House is a mess. Cannot find a rhythm to get some writing or artworking done. I piled more on the TO DO list than anything. I didn't sleep all that well, nor eat better... And My girl and I went through a two day fight.

All of these things are not unique. They happen in everyone's lives. But the way I've been rolling lately, I feel like I'm limping in circles. Going nowhere really damn fast. Barely awake and conscious anymore. I'm stressed and just mentally fucked. You check the news and everyday some insane shit is going down. Just absolutely insane. I get so worked up about it, and there's nothing I can do about it. My girl is frustrated too with her job and other things. We are all we have and so we sometimes take it out on each other, without realizing it. We've been through so much together and so quickly. She helps me through my shit and I try to help her with hers. But my shit seems so big, that I sometimes cannot look past it to see anyone else needing me.

Everytime issues come up in my life, I do this spiral. Where nothing is good, everything sucks and I'll never get out of the shit that holds me back. I think about just giving up. You know, the scary thoughts. I could never do it. Never. But I sure love to think about it. 

I am a depressed person. I have so many things holding me down and back. I can easily write down a list of the things I want and I'd say if I just had these things, I'd finally be happy.

But would I?

I'm talking with my best friend for over 25 years and he tells me he is in therapy and taking pills for depression and a few other things. I'm absolutely floored. When he told me, I cried. The dude has everything on my fucking list. A great high paying job, a loving marriage, he gets to tuck his kid in at night and spend time with him everyday, a huge nice house filled with toys and the financial ability to get anything that comes out when he wants it, a newer nicer couple of vehicles, etc etc etc.... HOW CAN HE BE DEPRESSED??!!!?

I was concerned for my friend. I guess I realized that it won't take those things on my list to make me happy. It will take more work on my part to get myself mentally right. So I made the decision to go back to therapy and maybe even explore pill options. I'm turning 40 in 5 months. I want the rest of my life to be the best of my life. I have so much I want to do and accomplish for myself and my kids, for my friends and my fans. There is so much great work to be done.

After a hard week of shit and once the dust settled from my girl and I's hard fighting weekend, we were exhausted. We took a nap together and then drove to Kalamazoo to see comedian Doug Stanhope. He's one of my absolute favorite comics of all time with easily the darkest sense of humor around. His work has always appealed to me. Not for the faint of heart, fair warning! We stopped off at a used DVD/CD store and found a few gems. I decided to finally pick up one of the TREK TNG seasons on Blu-ray... which when I got it home, it does look immaculate! I'm so late to the table on those... More on that some other time.

We get to the bar and I have a long island and some fries. We get into the show and are seated right up front next to this really nice couple. I buy D and I a few more long islands and the show starts. Local talent goes up first and he's not bad at all! Then a very drunk Andy Andrist comes out and does a very funny set. It was his birthday and you can tell he had already been celebrating. Finally Doug came out and he did well over an hour. I didn't snap any photos out of respect for his asking the crowd not to. I brought along my copy of his book "DIGGING UP MOTHER" for him to sign, if they come out after the show.

Well, they did come out and we lined up. I got one of their tour posters. Its not a very great poster but I supported the show and got Doug, Greg Chalie and Andy A to sign it. It was my turn to go up to the dude to get my book signed. He sees me and reaches out like he wants a hug.

Now, I'm not a hugger at all. I got a space thing. And I would think someone like Doug Stanhope wouldn't be either. He didn't hug anyone else before me in line. But for some reason he reached out for one. I made with the hug and a couple pats. Maybe he sensed I needed it. Maybe they got a running joke of hugging all the fat guys at the shows. Maybe he was appreciative that I didn't mess with him at the show (like others did) and I actually bought his book a while ago and brought it for him to sign. But in that moment, I didn't care. Whatever the case, I hugged the man and he signed my book. That was that.


We left there and I was smiling. I didn't even realize it. I hugged my girl and said, "Dude, I just hugged Doug Stanhope. How cool was that?"

It was cool. And it put me in a good mood. I told myself, "everything is going to be okay."

It took me a while to fall asleep. Its been a crazy week. Lots of downs and a few big ups. But I met a hero and he was a cool dude. I took my girl out and she laughed her ass off. She ate nachoes and got a few rare DVDs she's been looking for. I treated myself to a remastered TREK Blu-Ray that looks awesome. I walked away with some good memories from a comedy show. I got some Overtime hours in at the day job which will help out as it always does. The big decision of going back to therapy is off my mind. Its okay for me now to accept help. My colorist emailed me to say the newest pages I sent him are colored and ready to go.

Maybe after all... it was a good week.

This morning I woke up super early to pee. The cats scratched at the door so I decided to get up. To write this blog. To start a roast that my girl and I will enjoy later. To clean the house and straighten things up. And after that, I feel the drive. I'm busting out the pencils and getting to work again. I think I will do it watching my TNG Blu-Ray... celebrating that 30 years ago this next month, my mom, brother and I sat and watched the premiere of the show. And now I get to watch it, remastered and reassembled from the original negative. Not a video transfer but from the actual film strip.

Its a great time to be alive... and its all going to be okay.

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Downtime

I've come to really hate downtime.

Downtime comes from anywhere. Either my lack of time to get anything done. Too many things calling for my attention. Too much self doubt or thinky pain seeping into me and freezing my ability to do anything. Health issues preventing me from doing my thing...

All of this leads to a long period of fucking downtime. It seems endless. Sometimes it seems eternal.

The ideas are there. The drive to get it done is there. But all these other things in my way are hurdles to the end goal of just sitting at a table with a pencil and the opportunity to get it done.

We all have responsibilities and day to day doings. I guess when I was younger I could handle it better. I didn't have as many things in my way. But I could juggle full time college, relationships, friends, two jobs and still find time to get my comics done. I wish it could still be that way, but I guess I've resigned to the fact that it simply is not.

I got many things on the burner. Various books and writings. Comics and other art pieces. These Tshirt ideas that keep nagging at my brain to get them up and out. Then administrative stuff with the website, podcast, blogs, etc.

I'm not complaining about these things at all. I LOVE these things. And I love it when people message me wanting them or cannot wait for them. Its a good feeling. I guess I love beating myself up that I am not as fast as I used to be. Driven, I still am. But fast, no. (sigh)

Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans, right? I guess a lot of me has been focusing on life. Like this:

I got D and I a new mattress. The old one was giving out, even though I only had it a year and a half. It was a piece of shit really. I should have invested in a good ART VAN one. But no, I had to go the cheap route. Made for a sore back for sure. Anyway, we got a new one last week and have been sleeping much better. Although Luna here misses her old climbing obstacle, we had to toss the thing. Poor girl.

We try so hard to make time for friends. Its like we got a rotation going. And there are several friends we want to hang out with but just cannot seem to get things rolling to where we can get together. But this past weekend, my pal Matt came up and we went to Cheddars and drank a lot of booze. Here he is enjoying some desserts.

Meanwhile on our own, D and I have been taking care of each other. She made me some Chicken Alfredo that I took to work with me yesterday. We're trying to get into a routine of being around for each other and WITH each other. Juggling work and our outside activities can seem like too much sometimes.
In as much as I am frustrated about the downtime I have away from my comics and other creative stuff going on, I'm also upset about the lack of time I have just being at home. I am about 6 episodes behind on PREACHER, behind on my daily writing and sketching, behind on some gaming stuff, behind on cleaning tasks and sorting things.... I think I would do well to have a week or two off from everything so I can just get caught up and get things where I need them to be. Frankly, I'm exhausted.

But I know its not going to let up. At the day job I am working OT every week now, which is great, but means other things are now 2-4 hours behind per day. I get fatigued and wired up on wanting to do, but cannot do it when I actually find myself time to get to it. You know that feeling? Anyway, when I shake off this shit, I gotta put the finishing touches on this new book and get it kickstarted. Then finish off Starslam 3, which is more than halfway done. Then finish off the two other things, then get shirts up somehow in there. Then work on novel stuff. Hopefully some more music I have been working on sporadically in between all of that...

Fuck I hate downtime. Some of it is lack of time or by design... but the downtime caused by myself, is what hurts the most. I think I am going to take this latter part of the year and focus on just slowing down and getting some shit done at home. Gotta keep my head, you know?

Maybe instead of complaining about it, I need time just to get DOWN and BOOGIE!

I also know that some of this might just be from me reading the news everyday. The constant threat of nuclear war, the white supremacy rallies and how our "president" is not presiding or directing us as to the life we should want... maybe its the world dragging us down and not ourselves. Let's agree to shake it off and flip this downtime upside down and get back to business! Who is with me?

--T