Lots of things going on, and in my mind. Why not share?
Been at my new job a month. I’ve grown to like it quite a bit. I was so-so in the beginning, but now I am quite confident in the job and got into my swing of things. Everyone says I am doing really well and enjoy it. It is a lot on me physically, but really, that’s a good thing. One major complaint I had about working as a graphic artist is that I put on 50 pounds, sitting in the chair every day for five years, munching out of boredom. And at the porn shop, there were times when I got to sit down and do computer work. It made me a lazy person. Well, I’m paying for it now, but I find that as the weight starts to melt off and my muscles awaken from their long slumber, that its betting easier.
(Cue MUSIC: “Trying hard now… its so hard now…”)
Still working on OUTCAST word balloons. I’ve slowed on it because money is soooooo tight lately. We still (STILL) haven’t got my unemployment benefits, nor our federal refund check (fuckin’ H&R BLOCK!). I don’t have the money to print PLEASANT LIFE tradebook before my signing on May 2nd. But I should have some in time for my first con appearance in June. Or else, why the hell am I going? I plan to also do some cool prints too, and whip up some sort of backdrop display to display the prints. We’ll see what I can do. Losing my job during the crucial time it happened did put a damper on lots of the plans I had. But I am righting the ship. I never submerged. In fact, my job offered me 40 hours a week last night now. Apparently, I am that good to them. COOL! And plus, my wife may be up for promotion. Which would help us out tremendously!
Times are tough. The economy is still struggling, but supposedly getting better. Everyone is fighting as to who did what, how to fix it, etc. Everyone has their own ideas. I’m not so interested in placing blame, as I am just trying to stay afloat and feed my family. Sustinance and covering is all we need, right? Well, we got that, so we’re doing good.
Scott is doing good too. Still no crawling. He’s about the same. More talking and he’s eating baby foods now. Actually he somewhat prefers that over his bottles of milky. He can grip things and hold them too. Learning to play with toys. But then I’ll have to teach him how to keep his toys in the box, so they keep their value.
Last week, my parents came up. One morning, my dad and I had a talk. I told him that I sorta felt guilty that I pursued a degree that really didn’t land me a great paying job. And that I perhaps squandered my life pursuing my dreams of art. I said that I was considering perhaps just quitting and just going into business and paying off our bills. He urged me not to, because I would never be happy. Plus, I would be perceived as a quitter to my children and that dreams are not worth pursuing.
That surprised me. Dad has been one to work a job, and just be responsible with his money. He worked in the oil fields all his life. He always said “Work hard. Work hard.” I really never thought he considered my artwork to be “hard work.” I thought he didn’t understand what I do. But apparently he does, more than I thought he did. There comes a point to when things you like cease to be “hobbies” or “dreams” and become who you are. Like the guy who quits his great job to live in a van, traveling from gig to gig to “make it” as a musician. The stories are out there. Like, someone believes in their dreams so much, that they make it happen.
I feel like I’ve improved, worked hard, achieved some successes and still, I am waiting for things to happen. I keep reaching, staying cool. I guess the urge of money and the obligation of paying for my family and food for them has sorta got me derailed for a while there. I mean, yeah, you gotta have your ducks in order before you pursue certain things. Like I cannot live in a van right now to go achieve the dream. I guess what you need is patience. Its enough to know that my wife, my kids, my parents, my friends and my fans are all at my back, urging me on. If no one cared or listened, I would have gave up long ago. Every time I get down on myself, it seems immediately, something happens to make me say, “I’m still relevant.”
No one can tell you how to live your dream, or to stop living your dream. If you want something bad enough, you’ll find a way to make it happen. It’s a combo of fate, patience, and perseverance. So folks: Don’t give up on your dreams. Sometimes, its all we have.
Inspirational soapbox over.
In over news, I am REALLY into the ANGRY VIDEO GAME NERD and his videos. They are done by this guy named James Rolfe and they are hysterical. He does other videos too, mostly movie lists and reviews. He even did a documentary on the filming locations of the Rocky movies. I highly recommend checking out his videos here:
http://www.cinemassacre.com
Also, I got a new online store!!!! Its complete with carts, online descriptions and more! Super convenient and easy to use! I’ve finally entered into the 21st century! Scope out my new online store here: (and order something won’t cha!?)
http://www.bizium.com/viewAll.cfm?m=283&catID=370
Shane and I uploaded a new talkcast at talkshoe.com. We chat about 80's sitcoms and movies, what movie car we’d want, my distaste for superhero comics, Movie remakes and perhaps buy a one way ticket to hell by reciting a list of the six most depraved sex acts from the bible. Enjoy!
http://www.talkshoe.com/talkshoe/web/talkCast.jsp?masterId=42356&cmd=tc
I will be doing a couple more later this week with a couple NEW special guests! Keep checking back as you won’t want to miss these episodes!
Okay, that’s it for now. Thanks for listening to me ramble and grumble.
Luvs, T
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