I've kept kinda mum on this whole thing. Just sorta waiting for the dust to settle. Everyone is mad and divided. Everyone's looking for someone, something to blame. I guess thats normal. To me, Michael Jackson dying means the end of something no one of the newer generations will ever understand. The Uberstar. The end of the 80's. A decade is now over. To me, thats very sad. I never want the 80's to be over. Sure, SOME of the bands and actors that made that decade are still around, but who knows for how long? The age is starting to show and their careers are starting to dwindle.
No career dwindled, nor did any star fall as hard as MJ did. You know, call me crazy, but despite the rumors and jokes, I always maintained that he was innocent. Sure, he was a tad screwy (due to having a fucked up childhood). But unless they come out with irrefutable proof that he was into kids, I refuse to believe it. It was all just too convenient. I always maintained his innocence, despite everyone judging me. I didn't care. I loved the music. They remind me of my own childhood.
I grew up with my brother Michael, who is mentally handicapped. He would scream and yell as his only means of communication. The only thing that would calm him was this old Betamax tape full of Michael Jackson videos. Everything from Beat it, Thriller, the Motown 25th special where he premiered the Moonwalk... all of it. I must have seen that stuff a million times during my childhood. I even owned a Michael Jackson record player with a microphone. I'm proud to say today that I still own a few of his albums and he's always been on my ipod.
What can I say? I'm an 80's kid. And his stuff in the 70's and 90's was just as good too. I love the music. I love the dancing. I love moonwalker. I just dig it. I'm shocked and sad at his sudden death, cause I Was so looking forward to him proving everyone wrong and making a huge comeback. Its a letdown. Sorta like I felt when Chris Reeve died when he was starting to make improvements in his health and could actually move fingers and things. You just had hope.
I dunno how this is all going to pan out in the end. My thoughts now only reside on how the media is gonna fuck with his family now. It totally sucks too. I hate it. But what can I do? I guess not read the trash. and I won't. All I will do is listen back to the music and remember the time. (see what I did there?)
Ahh... okay, thats off my chest. Lets lighten things up and talk about abortion. No joke. I'm serious. My wife recently clued me into this thing called third trimester abortions. Once I was told what they were, I was absolutely disgusted. I think I'm against abortion now. I was very pro choice and still am to some degree. But the thought that this sort of thing exists sickens me. And then I think, what makes it right for a first term then? At what point does it become "human?" I remember seeing Scott as a little pea on a monitor. What was he then? Its really made me step back and re-examine how I feel about it all. I think my ultimate stance is: Its not for me. I think choice is important for SOME cases (I.E. rape, etc.). However, I think abortion shouldn't be so readily available. Some counseling would need to happen. I'm not ready to go out and protest planned parenthood or anything. Its still a person's choice. But if I had the chance, I'd really talk to a expecting mother about this. And listen. Cause holy shit man.
OOOOOOOOOOOOkay... on a lighter note: I've been working out the kinks in some of my grey areas in my art lately. You can scope out my deviantart page for that. Thats just some of what I've been doing. I've sorta been taking myself back to school and reworking out my flaws and bad habits. Now I'm looking to redo some of the Outcast pages that I feel I can do better on. I'm not looking forward to that. But then again, I am. Cause I am excited about how much better I can make it. Long journey.
Anyway, I'm off. Good night folks.
T
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