Its coming close to the end.

As the year comes to an end, I look back at some of the cool shit that has happened to me and my family. Lots of ups and downs. Even now I am on the downward slope of a ride that definitely had some high notes. I think back to the little things I've learned this year. Some hard lessons I've been struggling with. Some scary thoughts that now monopolize my mind. Fear of the future, both personally and professionally. Fear of the unknown and economy taking us for a ride. Just general fear of everything.

On the plus side, it is indeed an exciting time for me. I've got more going on now than I ever have before. I've never been more "successful" than I have before. Commissions and workload are at an all time high. I've never got more attention than I have this past year. And with the plans I got for next year, its only gonna triple. Trust me, with whats coming, it will!

I think back to some of the best times. Concerts, Football Games, spending time with the family, going to cons, etc. I gloss over the worst of times. Including the sort of hardship I am going through now. Its hard to get bummed out cause of the plethora of awesome that exists right now. I'm very grateful for that. It keeps me sane. And I guess it makes me unafraid or even unconcerned about what is to happen very soon. Like right now, its looking inevitable that next year, I will have to get a night job at McDonalds or a gas station somewhere. Something a 32 year old "shouldn't" be doing, according to the values instilled in us all. It seems as though I "failed" or something. But really, I have not. I should not be ashamed. In fact, (and I say this without ego) I should be commended. Because when the chips are down and things look bleak, I step up to the plate once again and do what I must. Even when its sort of "degrading" or may even harm my long term plans or career somewhat. I still step up and get the job done. I provide for my family and take care of our goals. There's no shame in that. At least, I cannot find any at this point. Say what you want. I'll flip that burger proudly to know that I've done what needed to be done.

Thats what I've been wrestling with the last couple days. I found out my unemployment is gone and the dream job I keep looking for isn't out there. But it really doesn't matter anymore. Because no matter what comes in the new year, I will accomplish all my goals. I've got the prize before me and I know what must be done to get it. Both personally and professionally.

So as 2010 closes, I think out with the old and in with the new. My game plan has changed slightly. I'm embracing what fate is handing me and it has me excited for whats to come. To be debt free. To be rid of a lot of personal demons that plague me. To launch a couple new ventures and see the success rise. Cause it will. Bet money on it this one, it will! And even last night, I was thinking ahead to things for 2012 and beyond. Perhaps some new Pleasant Life? Yeah, I got a story idea that I think I may do. So even when some doors close, they can be reopened and relived again. Its life baby.

All in all, 2010 was a great year. I have no regrets. So bring your worst 2011. Its gonna be hard to stop me with what I got coming. Its going to be my biggest year ever. Count on it.

Luvs, T