The Truth Comes Out...

Hey all. Truth time.

For the last couple weeks, I have still been on the diet I started on Valentine's day. But this past weekend, I slipped off. Pretty damn hardcore.

While I still haven't touched any hardcore coke product soda, I did get a couple 2-liters of Orange Crush. Soda still, yes. I have 1/2 a 2 liter left and some cans of diet Orange Crush left to go through. Fruit Punch was the gateway drug to it. But this past weekend, the wife and I enjoyed some pizza, some McDonalds, Culvers, Logans and a couple other restaurants. Yeah, I was a bad monkey. I still tried to pick "healthier" choices at these places, but still, it was bad.

Why did I fall off? I'd say stress being #1 factor. I got some things going on that I don't need to get into, but its been eating at me and so I eat back. I certainly don't have any $$$ to go out and buy anything like I used to. Nor would I have a good place to choose from to buy things if I wanted to. Its why I stay away from AMAZON.com lately! Another reason is just convenience, once again. The wife and I were having a tough couple weeks with some family and personal shit, and we let it control us. We fell off together, but thankfully not too hard. Not like it was in the past.

The good news is, I weighed in, and only gained 3 pounds out of my almost week of relapse. I wasn't punished too much. I'm still down from where I was. But now its back on the wagon. The wife started first by going to the gym last night and pounding out some calories and sweat on the eliptical. Today, I did 20 minutes on the treadmill. I am finishing off the last of the bad Crush tonight and going back to the new habits.

I said before when I started this that I am an addict. And I cannot promise that I won't relapse again at some point. Or even "treat" myself. Its going to be a long climb for me. I knew that going on. But this time, I took control back quickly and am back in the saddle again. I am determined to stay on it longer this time. I want to cross that 25 pound mark. And I am gonna work my damnedest to get that to happen in the coming weeks.

I appreciate your thoughts, your support and your guidance. Its a long hard road out of hell isn't it? But I'm ridin' out fast. I hope to continue to prove that to all of you. And to myself.

luvs, T