I'm finding that I am starting to lose my "monday, I did this, tuesday I did that" thing. I may do some here and there, but really, my life is pretty mundane. Its not like I field questions from Hollywood everyday or something like that. I just do my daily thing. I draw, go to work, spend time with those close to me and sleep. Sometimes poop and buy stuff. Thats it. So, mostly this blog's next 100 posts will be about my mind spewings. Here's some thoughts I have tonight:
---My last post: I read it over again today and A-my diet thing is worded oddly and B-I sounded completely DOWN when talking about my work. Allow me to reillustrate what I was saying:
DIET - I'm still on board with the diet. I want to continue and drop to where I was 5 years ago and be happy that way. I wasn't meant to do a 200. Now, if I get down that 50 pounds or so and WANT to continue, thats one thing. But I feel that I am at my comfort zone if I were to drop 25-40 pounds away from where I am right now. I am not giving up or anything like that. Just telling you not to be surprised If I say I enjoyed a Quarter Pounder yesterday. Diet isn't a deprive situation. Its a choice to improve and change your life and it has to be at your own pace. But putting it in a more public forum makes me feel guilty so I'll stop with the Blogging back at the site about it.
COMICS - The only thing I am down slightly about is that in 5 years, I hadn't got the attention that I was hoping to get. But when in essence, what have I done? I did 7 ashcans, 3 trades, 4 side projects, 2 failed unlaunched series and started three issues for 2007 release. I did 2 cons. every year, I did Motor City. I got some press, and built a website. Nothing TOO major. I still never got distribution or another company's interest (not that I pursued it much). Nor did I go to any of the MAJOR cons. Wizard World Chicago was the biggest so far.
But I've set goals for achiving those things in which I lack. I have step by step goals that have been in the making since I printed the first Pleasant Hymns ashcan back in 2002. While I've wished for and promised big things to come, they will. The only thing that delays me is money. Lack of money. But what artist doesn't have that problem? Thats what leads me to believe that when I get another company involved, we'll get my comics out to the people. Thats what I care about right now. So, I've spent 5 years honing my art to where I want it to be and now its time to make it shine.
Last night I was a little down, but not out of self doubt. I went and looked at my finished PLEASANT LIFE #1 pages with completed word balloons and saw right away that this first issue kicks complete ass over anything that I've done in the past. Its VERY amazing. Its professional, every panel is full and exciting. The words are more realistic than ever, the pacing of the story is dead on and the characters have finally come to life. Its completely amazing and I cannot wait for you all to see it.
I guess I was bummed cause of the following things:
OUTCAST - Its been delayed time and time again cause of my lack of funding and now, dissatisfaction with the art and concept. When I created the story, I had no idea that there were ALREADY some similar TV shows and comics out there. What was an original and honest piece of work from me, got jaded cause its potential comparisons in mainstream media. I don't want to follow a trend! So, I've been thinking of putting it on the back burner again and rethinking some things about it. That means 100 pages of art of mine were for nothing. But at least it got me practicing. But I want to HONE Pleasant Life to be all it was meant to be. I really believe that everyone can love that book.
So what I am saying is that Outcast isn't happening. In fact, I am thinking seriously of handing it off to another artist to draw for me. Not to say that the ART was the problem. Its just that the experience of having to RE-WRITE and RE-INVISION what I already originally created has made me sour on the whole thing. So, yeah, I am looking for an artist whose artwork I think will fit the concept I want to do. Its still a personal work and I intend to find someone who can work with it with the same passion as I want to give to it. But I think I will be more on the CREATIVE and WRITING end of it. So, if you are interested in an art gig, hit me via email and we'll discuss the deal and my expectations.
Another thing that was bummed about was the fact that I was hoping to have PLEASANT LIFE #1 printed in time for MID OHIO CON. I could probebly print around 25 copies, but whats the point? I need the cash for travel expenses and things. And I am doing a larger print run in January on it anyway. Best to just wait. But I feel like I keep dissapointing everyone. I don't mean to do that. Its not like I want to spite you. Beleive me, if I had some company handling the printing end of this whole thing, it would be alot easier on me. Hopefully in 2007, we're gonna fix that. Mark my words.
2007 will be a much better year. First off, its my 5th year anniversary with Pleasant Hymns... so I am planning a live event to coincide and celebrate it. Then I got Wiz World Chicago... and learning from this past year's mistakes, I'll make it a funner, more profitable show for me. Also, SAN FRIGGIN' DIEGO! I mean, the big one. The big time. Man, I am excited about that one! and hopefully my goals will be achieved and the world will be hearing alot of me. Lets hope. No, lets wait for it, cause it WILL happen. Bet on it.
Till next time kiddies.
T
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