I'm older, but not wiser

Wow. I turn 30 today. That’s just nutty.

Sandmen are stalking me outside my window cause I didn’t “RENEW.” (See LOGAN’S RUN for reference.)

Many of my friends are older and telling me that 30 is no big deal. It really isn’t. But I haven’t been able to shake the feeling that I’m losing some special status of some sort. Like, my twenties are gone. How many times have you ever thought “Man, I’d like to be a teenager again!” Well, that’s even FURTHER away for me now.

Being old (which I ain’t) doesn’t scare me. But the perception of me does. I cannot control that. I guess that’s the part that sucks about turning 30.

Overall, I’m fine with it. I’ve accepted it. But I am almost at my mid-life range. No one in my family has lived past 65. My dad is closing in on that range right now. Its just scary to perceive the passage of time. Not for fear of death, but to say “wow, those times I loved to be in are gone and will never come back.” I guess I hate change. I hate it really bad. So that’s why I don’t like turning 30.

Oh well. At least I’m not dead yet.

Other news: My wife and I are going through a difficult struggle with something in our personal lives. It doesn’t involve our RELATIONSHIP, but moreover a hardship we’re gonna have to endure. I’m simply gonna ask for prayers or thoughts you can send our way. We’d appreciate them. Sorry to be vague. If you want the truth, I can tell you via email. Just hit me and I’ll spill. But this is quite the public forum and I don’t want everyone in possession of my secrets.

And finally, what would a blog of mine be without some TREK talk?!?! They revealed a pic of the ENTERPRISE corridor. Of course, its modernized and not accurate historically. I’m trying not to cry foul and just let the chaps have their vision and hope they take into account us nitpicking hardcore trekkers. Cause we will rip them a new ass. Anwyay, here’s a look at that corridor pic:

http://i15.photobucket.com/albums/a382/TBonzie/Interior-Corridor1.gif

Now I’m off to eat some birthday cake and get fatter.

T