Goings on....

I'll forgo the "I did this, then that" for now, because I cannot recall everything now. Everything is a blur and very similar anyway. So I'll spare you the mundane.

Basically, Scotty is doing great. He's off of oxygen and now he no longer needs those blood sugar checks. I was getting mad, cause they were checking it every damn hour and his feet look soooo scarred. He looks like a junkie. But thank god thats over. Also, his IV is gone. All we have left is for him to get on a schedule and be eating like a normal baby, and then we can go home. Unfortunately, this will be a long process and our hopes of going home by monday are slipping away. 100% by now. I am assuming we will be here at least till next Saturday, if not the NEXT saturday after that. So I dunno.

Mom and I are holding up pretty well. But I would be lying to you all if I said I don't feel fatigued and a tad "not myself." We've been on this routine and very supportive of him, spending more time at the hospital than anyone else, sleeping in the room, watching educational videos, being there for diaper changes and feedings. We're doing all we can. But I am starting to really just get run down and tired as hell. I want to go home. But I haven't lost sight of the prize, that going home together as a FAMILY, will be totally worth it in the end. So, I don't begrudge the situation at all. Scotty will come around and start eating normally and its something that I cannot force, nor is it my fault. Its like making a baby walk. They only want to do it on their own. Its hard to do, but all we can do is be there for him.

Unfortuantely, this week I am back to work full time so that means me driving to and from the hour and some minutes and travel time. My folks have graciously given me means to pay for gas and hotel during our stay. I really feel guilty for that. I mean, they raised me, so their job should be finished right? Not so with them. I am grateful that they are there for us. We are very lucky people, my wife and I. I hope Scotty gets to know my parents better and learns of how gracious, and loving his grandparents are. If not for them, we wouldn't be able to do this. Great thanks for everything.

I took a nap in the feeding chair today. My snoring didn't wake him up at all. Nice.

I am thinking that part of my withdrawl symptoms is the fact that I haven't drawn in over a week. When I go back to work monday night, I will stop off at the house and grab a few blank pages so I can do some layouts and pencilling while hanging out here in the hospital. This next week will be a HUGE task for me, as my sleep will really be lacking. I am thankful I have an understanding wife who will let me probebly go back to the hotel for a nap or two.

Anyway, after his next feeding and meeting the NEXT shift's nurse, we're gonna head out and get some food supplies from the store. Then dinner and maybe sleep. We'll see.

In other news, we WILL have a THE AMATEUR HOUR show tomarrow on talkshoe. I will be on the phone only, not in the chatroom, as I will be driving on my way to work at the time. Join us at 10pm Eastern this week... instead of the usual 11pm Eastern on talkshoe.com. We're talking about time management, dream project adaptations and other things I cannot recall. Tons of regulars and guests pop in all the time, so who knows what might happen? So, join us tomarrow night won't you?

Luvs, T

BTW, hospital bills are not cheap! So for those that might be inclined... I am taking commissions still! (hint hint)