Sure, I posted what I did earlier. And I even shared it with some of those close to me. Immediately, I got calls and emails asking if I was okay or was I down or depressed. Not at all. I think that below I didn't say anything depressing really. I stated my true thoughts, raw and uneditied as I thought of them. I gave myself an "honest mental review" of my state of mind when it comes to my PAST work.
Thats the thing, I was mediocre in my PAST work. This new stuff I am doing, really I feel will change whatever perceptions people have about me. It is my best work. Best foot forward. My new direction. My whatever the hell you call it. Point is, I am mentally ready to walk on past the old shitholes and artistic sinkholes I have dwelled in and move on to a better place. In many different aspects of my life. Promises I've made that I've not kept and all that. I intend to make good on all of it in 2009.
My pals said it best to me today: In the end, we're all making comics. We get to entertain people. WE GET TO! Thats the cool part. I get to go to shows and travel finally in my life and promote what I do. I get to take my family to these places. I get to meet my friends there and make NEW friends that understand EXACTLY what I am going through. I get to create worlds for people to enjoy. I get to wake up and break open a new sharpie and micron pen and put that sucker to bristol.
It is a privelige to do this. Sometimes I forget that. Like, "man, I WISH I could be doing this..." Well, I already am. It doesn't pay bills... but I am confident it will. Its a drive. Its a fire in me to make this happen.
Everything I've done has been one step into the improvement direction. Everything I do is better than the last. I am on the path and running wild. Like Hulkamania n'shit.
So, please don't take any of what I said before as to mean that I am "depressed" or anything. I simply was stating some of my personal thoughts as an artist. Other artists out there can relate, I am sure. they've been telling me so all day. And again, I thank my pals for coming to me today to make sure I was alright.
Sure I'm alright man. I'm better than alright. Ya'll ain't seen nuthin' yet!
T
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