I gotta toot my own horn for a minute. This year is a big year for me. I worked on IMAGE comics! I worked on ANTARCTIC PRESS comics! I worked on WALKING DEAD!!! I released a Full Color graphic Novel that was my best selling yet! I did another issue of an indie comic with my good pal Brett. I went to Dallas Con and sold very well! I made new art and had a great time doing it. I sold A LOT of erotica artwork to the Switzerland Gallery with more and more ordered each week. Coming up, I get to work on Night of the Living Dead and for MARVEL FUCKING COMICS!!!!! Sure, its a small capacity, but I'll take it! I got a lot to be proud of this year. And I am I gonna let some BS that doesn't even matter derail me? Not by a fucking long shot. A place I work doesn't define me. I do the day job cause I have to take care of my family. Thats not being a loser. I have to remember that. Being a loser is not even trying to provide for them or be a good dad to them.
I guess I got a bit sad today cause the wife is starting her awesome new store tomorrow and her people at her old store threw her a going away party. I'm proud of her. She seemed smiley and happy. But I go to the day job for the first time in a week and shit is in chaos! Inventory is still being worked on, there's employee drama, there's drunken arsehole customers, I have to do some things there I don't particularly like doing, and I get snipped at by the arsehole boss there of the club side. Just the vibe of being in the place is enough to poison you. I remembered back to when I was a manager at the McDonalds and was well loved and what I did made a difference. And at the Cinema, where I loved everyone and the job and I earned my promotions and pay. I loved every second I Was there. I missed it and I will never get that feeling back again. I let it get to me. I just wanted to run and hide. But after a while, I had a conversation in my head with someone I care for deeply. (Sounds odd I know, but bare with me. It keeps me sane believe it or not) And I got my answer right away. THESE THINGS DO NOT MATTER. I have a new path now, one I am quite proud of. Things have been laid out for me to continue on the path I am on now. Its like I was "meant" to go.
I guess the lesson here is: Never lose your sight. Keep your head up and fixated on what you want to do. Take your shot. Don't let things or others (especially your own damn self) derail you or distract you. You know what you want, and what you got to do to get it. Do it. Do it. DO IT. Forgive me for being angry when I do get that way. I was wrong to despair. I lost my eyes from the prize. As the lyric goes, "For a minute there, I lost myself."
Anyway, you are overdue for some new photos. Here we go. A new quick drawing of Evil Lynn from He-Man:
Ah, the move. Here's a stack of boxes in my dining room. We move in six days. I cannot wait for it to be over with....
BOTS PICS! Here he is sleeping. I swear I got more pics of him sleeping than anything else. He's so cute when he sleeps...
I took him to Toys R Us last week and I got him a stuffed BROBEE from 'Yo Gabba Gabba.' He takes it everywhere we go!
Today he decided Brobee needed to sit in the laundry basket. Bots always has these little projects going...
Okay thats it. Six glorious days off from work and its time to get artwork rocking again, get my head space clear and rock out with my cock out. I hope the wife enjoys her new store. Wish her luck!
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