Raving and Drooling: What I really need....

I'd be lying if I said I was in steady production. I don't know what it is but all this year I have been slowing my production levels. I Started out strong with Anna Pocalypse getting done and going to the printer. Starting webstrips and writing the Anna sequel. Also writing little tidbits here and there for future endevors. But beyond that, I have slowed personal progress on my own work.

However, this has been my busiest year for PAID work. Commissions and freelance gigs (sketch cards, logo designs, etc) are at an all time high. That has felt good. Its went to keep my bills afloat and to make up when our day job checks fall short. I'm proud of that. Took a long time to get this far.

But again, I'd be lying if I said that the fire under my ass to get work done on my personal projects (the webstrip, Anna II and other stuff) hasn't dimmed somewhat. Maybe its fatigue. I've considered perhaps a break from it all. But I've caught a wave and I don't want to lose it. Its not for lack of excitement. I mean the new stuff I got planned is very exciting and I want to see it all completed.

So whats my problem? I got the funnest, cushiest job in the world right now, the dream job and I'm just burned out. I have been picking up a lot of shifts at the day job, so maybe thats something to do with it. There's been a lot of stress about money, moving and all that. Maybe some of that has got me burned out. I don't know. I think it has to do with lack of vacation. I feel trapped or cased in. I would love to just get away for a couple days and breathe some nice air and relax. I would love to laugh and get decent sleep on a nice comfy bed. Maybe that would do me some good. I don't know.

I certainly know my health isn't the greatest. Maybe its cause I have been dropping the cola caffeine. I drink coffee about three times a week. I drink it at night during podcasts to keep me drawing and going. I just feel something wrong in me. Maybe its me trimming down on the High Fructose Corn Syrup and this is withdrawls? I have no clue. But I certainly want a recharge of my batteries. How, when, and where is the problem. Its not going to be in the foreseeable future that's for sure. In the new place there's a nice warm pool and a hot tub. Maybe a few nights of soaking in that will do me some good. I can only guess, really. But something has to give. One way or the other.

But no worries folks. I'm alive and well. I just feel I need a breather somewhere, somehow. I've been saying that for a year now. Sooner or later, its gotta happen.

T