Of Dreams Broken and Mountains To Climb

Yesterday I felt very gutted. Very hurt and empty. As yet another dream was denied me. I went for a consultation to get a mortgage for a house and it was declined. The dude worked with me for a long while. We tried resuscitating the dream, trying to make it live. We crunched the numbers and we went about every scenario possible, but alas, it just isn't going to line up.

...For now.

There is too much from my past holding me back. I pay too much in child support. I got a mountain in unpaid college loans. A few other things, mostly related to a previous relationship. In the end, it is what it is. And the dreams I've been having of getting my own place, mowing my own lawn, space for my kids, myself and a future investment for my kids is just not going to happen.

...For now.

In order for it to eventually happen, I'm standing at the base of a mountain. I'm just standing there, staring up at it. No climbing gear. Wondering if I should even bother to start climbing it.

I've been in this position before in my life. You see, owning my own home has been a dream of mine all my life. I have lived in over 17 different apartments. Yes, 17. I have moved a total of 32 times as well. I'm tired of moving. I'm tired of not owning what and where I live. I got a pile of stuff in boxes for "one day I can have it at my house." No room to use it or display it. I constantly scan websites of interior design and decorating that I could do in this dream home. But along the way, my life and the damage that has happened has held that dream back and apparently will continue to do so.

Like I said, I've been in this position before. Staring up at a mountain of a dream. I climb and then slide off. Failure. I've had many dreams in my life but usually they don't pan out the way I want them to. We cannot control everything in the world and we cannot make things line up exactly how we want it to. So it goes. It is what it is. And we pat ourselves on the back and say "well, at least I tried."

Yesterday I didn't feel like patting myself on the back. "Good try, next time," I'd say. No. I felt like crawling inside myself and screaming: "THIS IS YOUR FAULT. You should have tried harder in school. You shoulda paid on those loans. You shoulda saw what happened to you coming. You shoulda, you shoulda, you shoulda..." I'm very good at taking on blame that usually isn't mine. It might be the trait I excel at the most.

There are ways to make the dream happen. But I'm hyper aware of the clock ticking behind me. And after so many shattered dreams from my past now haunting me, I am scared to climb up again. Another dream gone. So maybe I should settle. Maybe I should be happy with what I got. Maybe I got just enough and I don't need anything else. Maybe I'm just jealous of others who got it and I don't. etc. etc. etc. After all, maybe I should listen to Tom Waits... and this song that I listened to yesterday:

House Where Nobody Lives

There's a house on my block
that's abandoned and cold
Folks moved out of it a
long time ago
and they took all their things
and they never came back
Looks like it's haunted
with the windows all cracked
and everyone calls it
the house, the house where
nobody lives.

Once it held laughter
Once it held dreams
Did they throw it away
Did they know what it means
Did someone's heart break
or did someone do somebody wrong?

Well the paint was all cracked
It was peeled off of the wood
Papers were stacked on the porch
where I stood
and the weeds had grown up
just as high as the door
There were birds in the chimney
and an old chest of drawers
Looks like no one will ever
come back to the
House where nobody lives

So if you find someone
someone to have, someone to hold
Don't trade it for silver
Don't trade it for gold
I have all of life's treasures
and they are fine and they are good
They remind me that houses
Are just made of wood
What makes a house grand
Ain't the roof or the doors
If there's love in a house
It's a palace for sure
Without love
It ain't nothin but a house
A house where nobody lives

So yes, maybe this dream slips away... for now. Maybe I will climb the mountain and get rid of all that holds me back and achieve the dream. I got a few other mountains staring at me too. I'm stuck in the valley looking up at all of them. No climbing gear. No tent to rest in. Just me. So do I have the will to walk up to one and get it going? Or to start chopping it down with the edge of my hand, like Jimi Hendrix said? Good question. 

Let's find out...

--T

Dreams of Change

Hey friends!

This week is a busy one. I got a couple commissions to finish and I went out on Monday to some solitude before work and the art gods blessed me with six pages penciled for Starslam 3! I also wrote out a few more pages of notes for a couple more stories for the upcoming first novel thingie. I'm hoping I can get to some heavy production next week on all these things. This weekend is shot because I'll be hanging out with the boys:

Introduced James to NINTENDO. He's able to beat the first Goomba. That's something I guess!

They both are just crazy hams.

Sometimes if I am lucky I can get some inking done on pages when they are here. Otherwise its all printing and taping up pictures for Scott-bot and Hungry Hippos, Vacuums and Ipad with James. But then I got Sunday night with some quiet time where I can get some stuff done. That's my prime time for production.

During the off times at night, my girl and I have been enjoying horror flicks. So far we've watched Don't Breathe, House on Haunted Hill (original), Demon Knight, Tales from the Crypt, Creepshow, Rosanne Halloween Collection, Camel Spiders, Chopping Mall, The Lost Empire, Evil Dead 2 and a few others I cannot recall at the moment. Its only October 5th. PLENTY of spookiness to come!

This past weekend I hung out with my pal Jeff. We met through being at the conventions and we're always trying to find time to hang out and draw. Luckily now we live in the same town! This weekend I went to his house and man does he have a beautiful home! He grilled out some burgers and made some boozy drinks for us while I checked out his collection. He has a massive amount of discs, books and Cds. I was in absolute heaven. And his home was just about the kind of thing I would love to own someday. It really inspired me and made me think of what is possible if I continue to follow the plan I got to get my own house.

I've moved 31 times in my life. I'm tired of moving. I'm tired of apartment living. I'm tired of a lot of things. I just want to get my own private Xanadu, filled with everything I love in my life. Plenty of room for all my boys to live in and have their own space. I got a savings plan to make that happen. I'm so dedicated to the idea that I'm going to sell more things of mine to put into the house fund. I'm even considering selling my record player and vinyl. I never get to play them anymore and I like the CD format cause I grew up with it. Records are nice, but when drinking I gotta get up and flip the record, they are more expensive, etc. I enjoy them but really if my house burned down, would I replace them? No. I'd stay with Cds and digital. It just works better for me. So yeah, they will probably go and the money will go straight to the house fund.

My plan will take some time. There are hurdles to get over for sure. But I just so desire a home of my own. I've dreamed about it for years now. And I know with my plan I got I can earn that home. All my friends have homes. Maybe its time that I get one of my own as well. Its a nice investment for my family's future. All I can do now is save big and dream big. That means going without for a while and I'm fine with that. So long as I continue towards the goal of a house.

Dream of change and it will head your way. If you want it bad enough, you can find a way to earn it.

Well I got about a thousand things to get done this week, so I will trekkkk on. Love all of you!

--T

Something for Nothing

Hello friends. I didn't plan to blog this week. But my head is filled with random thoughts and my sweet dear girlfriend Kitty D told me its always best to "get it out" in some form. Either write it in my personal journal or share it publicly. So I decided to do it here. Forgive the randomness as I chase the whimsies in my mind this time around.

First of all, some new media talk. I watched the finale of PREACHER. I gotta say, I like where it is going. There's enough there that makes me interested in continuing. There's a lot of things I liked and didn't like about this first season. But the final shot of the finale to me is worth the price of admission alone. I won't spoil it, but for a fan of the comic series like I am, its all I've wanted to see from the beginning. They seem to be making things go on track to follow more of what I am familiar with for season two. So we got some exciting stuff coming. Maybe the trip to NYC and Si, Cassidy's friend. Or perhaps a visit with Grandma, Jodi and the animal loving TC. Its all coming. Very exciting.

I'm going to see Suicide Squad hopefully this weekend sometime. Early reviews say its not very good, but I'm learning to judge for myself. Plus at least I get to look at Margot Robbie as Harley Quinn. That's gotta be worth $5, right?

Some new movies I've watched: Martyrs (Eh, interesting concept but too torture porn for me), Return to Class of Nuke Em High (I liked it, but where is part two already?!), We're the Millers (It was okay but I cannot recall laughing much during it), Samurai Cop (EXCELLENT!), Star Trek Beyond (Good. Better than I expected), I am Thor (Excellent Doc), Deathgasm (Fun but kinda blah in parts), He Never Died (It was okay.) Resurrection of Jake the Snake (Good Doc if you are into classic wrestling) and finally watched some episodes of STAR TREK The Animated Series that I either haven't seen or I don't remember that well. Always good. 

On my work, I have not done all that much this week. On Monday I had to take the kids at 6:30 am for a bit and drive bots to Okemos so I came back to catch up on sleep. That jacked me up for sure. Yesterday I wasn't feeling it so I watched PREACHER and did other stuff. Over the weekend I helped my pals Colleen and Caleb move (good exercise!) and then got drunk with Kitty D and her pal Jessica while playing some Cards Against Humanity. Sunday I had the boys all day. James helped me pack some more stuff for the move.

Ah, the move... In 23 days I will be moving into my new place in East Lansing. To say I am anxious for it is an understatement. At this point I just want it over with. I've been living around boxes of things for months now. There is lots of things to do and juggle until I get those keys. And I'm not looking forward to any of it. This will be my 31st move in my life. Yes, you read that right. I'm just over it. What is worse, in a year's time, I have to move again, back to this area so that I can take on the boys via joint custody and be in their same school district.

In some ways I will miss Grand Ledge. Its quiet. The building I'm in is pretty. But I'm anxious to get out and find some space of my own. I moved into this apartment with my ex girlfriend and it didn't turn out so well. So I am moving back to East Lansing, almost the same apartment I had before. Just restarting it over. But this time, I am moving in with my new girlfriend. We're going to try to build a life together. So far, despite all the shit that has been hurled our way though life in the short time we've been together, we've weathered it all and she's the most stable thing in my world right now. Thank the Lords for that.

But anyway, yeah, we are moving over there. Looking for quiet to start our world together. Becoming a well oiled machine and a team. We've got lots coming to tackle together. At least we get this time to make sure its all going to work out. Let's be honest: My track record for relationships hasn't been good over the years for various reasons. And this is my self imposed last shot at it. I hope this one lasts because she is the greatest thing to happen to me in a long while. I don't know what I would do without her at this point. 

Reading the social media news: Two artist pals of mine are doing extremely well. My old college pal Jay Fosgitt is now working for Marvel and doing all sorts of gigs. My old podcast pal Mark Brooks is doing excellent on his Han Solo books and even George Lucas has taken notice! It makes me so happy for them and inspired. I remember Mark telling stories about how he worked as a waiter, eating Ramen for months and poured all his money into art supplies and his time into his work. It has paid off. I've seen him tear up when he got certain honors. No one deserves success at what they do more than he does. And Jay, I know has struggled through various things over the years and has come out always swinging. Always with a rocket in his ass to keep going and doing things he wants to do. He's developing quite the following and getting tables at shows that all want him there. Its great to see!

Both of these dudes and a few others I've known over the years are hitting newer heights with their goals. I'm proud to know them and to see their success. It goes to show you that it never serves you to hold back from your dreams. You work hard, be patient and just keep kicking ass. Keep learning, growing and on to the next piece. As an artist, find your spot. Carve your place out. Maybe someone will notice. But in the end, art is not for other people. It's for YOU. It's your therapy. It's your dream you made come true. No one gave it to you.

I'm struggling folks. I'm trying hard to get fit (went to gym last night and OUCH!). Been off soda and caffeine for over a month now. I'm trying hard to keep my head in the funny books and get things done. I juggle so much in my life. A full time day job, keeping people in my life happy, paying off all bills, kids on the weekends... my time is very limited. Its almost as if the stars have to align in a certain way for me to get things done. All I want to do is work on my art and my writing. I want to finish things and stretch out and get better. I want to deliver my best. Its the struggle all artists go through.

My life has taken many twists and turns. Many ups and downs. I desire to just be at peace. I want to work hard and finish my books. I want to launch new projects and keep people interested in what I'm doing. I want to buy a house and never have to move again. I want to have a savings and be able to tackle anything that could happen, or have money to get or do anything I wanted as it came.

All of this will come... if I put in the work to make it happen. There is no grand secret in getting what you want. In life, everything comes down to one simple manifesto: IF YOU WANT SOMETHING BAD ENOUGH, YOU'LL FIND A WAY TO MAKE IT HAPPEN. Everything else is just bullshit reasons you tell yourself why you can't do it. Any success in life, job, dream, relationship, etc comes from hard work. You can't get something for nothing.... take it from RUSH:

"Something For Nothing" RUSH Album: 2112

Waiting for the winds of change
To sweep the clouds away
Waiting for the rainbow's end
To cast its gold your way
Countless ways
You pass the days

Waiting for someone to call
And turn your world around
Looking for an answer
To the question you have found
Looking for
An open door

You don't get something for nothing
You can't have freedom for free
You won't get wise
With the sleep still in your eyes
No matter what your dreams might be

What you own is your own kingdom
What you do is your own glory
What you love is your own power
What you live is your own story
In your head is the answer
Let it guide you along
Let your heart be the anchor
And the beat of your own song

All of us here have goals. There are things we want. Things we must do while we are chasing the dream. But what emerges is the fruits of our efforts. Make it happen, folks. Make it happen. I've seen people chase it and come out with victories. So can you.

Have a good week/weekend. Thanks for checking back as always. Onward and upward. 

--T

Thoughts pt. 287

He emerges from hobbit cave of internet silence to blog once again.

Hello my friends. lots of things going on. Lots to juggle. Lots of future to plan for. Despite me saying I'm taking a break from commission stuff for a bit, I've taken on some more commission work to help that future come along. Its from a trusted source so it should go smooth. I also got my Starslam 2 books back from the printer. Cheers to all who helped make it happen:

So I am busy filling out sketches and orders for that. Tons of work to do there.

I am busy packing my house for the eventual move to East Lansing in August. And I just secured an exciting deal to get joint custody of my boys next year! But that means I have to be closer to Scotty's school district. They are doing so well with his autism and to change his environment might be a step back for him. So once my lease is up over there in East Lansing, I have to move back to the area! (sigh) It is a juggle, but its for the good of Scotty's education. I was hoping to possibly put a down-payment on a house next year but I still have some financial fallout from my divorce that needs to be solved in order for that to proceed. It will take two things: Money and time. It will happen, but not without yet another move in my life.

Seems like all I have ever done is move. At least 30 times in my life have I moved my things to a new temporary "home." My co-workers are buying houses and fixing their houses. They are younger than me. As much as I am excited for them, part of me kicks myself for not being where they are. I know I will get there, and my circumstances are different. But I desire to mow my own lawn and paint my own walls. I think I've earned that right.

Someday.

I'm still saddened by the events in Florida last week. I usually check news sites more often now that I am avoiding social media. The political landscape is a complete mess. And in entertainment news, we get the sad news that Anton Yelchin (CHEKOV) had passed away due to a freak accident. I liked him in the first 2009 TREK movie. As well as the Fright Night remake and the Terminator Salvation flick. I saw this online and thought it fitting:

So what have I been doing on this break so far? Well, I have mostly sat and caught up with TV and Movies. Not much reading yet, but I will. I got two new Neil Gaiman books to start plus the new Doug Stanhope book. I also scored some new comics like Mark Brooks' on HAN SOLO for Marvel, Ted McKeever's PENCILHEAD and of course INVINCIBLE. And I've been working on new stuff of my own as well: 

Got some help here. James loves to erase daddy's pencils.

Been cooking a lot too. Here is James enjoying one of daddy's famous hamburgers.

I took my girl out to the best breakfast place in town: GOLDEN HARVEST! Here's a fun little toy from the wall in there.

Been taking the time to do a lot of drinking as well!

In addition to my NES collecting addiction, I got into more games on my iphone! I've been itching to play some RPGs but haven't been able to get Dragon Warrior 2-4 in the box. Wayyyyyy too expensive! I got Dragon Warrior 1 complete in the box but I beat that when I was a kid. Searching on the apple store I found you can buy and play those same games (with some graphic updates) on your phone! To wet my whistle about it, I got Dragon Quest (original name for Dragon Warrior) on my phone and have been playing it all weekend. As of this writing, I'm on level 21 and have to go get the Rainbow Drop to make the bridge to go to the last castle. Almost there. Then I'll get Dragon Quest 2 and kick its ass! Some screenshots: 

Right after I beat the green dragon and rescued the princess.

Stupid townsfolk.

This weekend my oldest son is coming to stay with me for a bit over the summer. I'm really looking forward to it. We'll spend the next week or two together and celebrate fourth of July weekend. This weekend I am taking him to southern Illinois to visit my dad and show him where his family comes from. He's never been there. And I'm long overdue for a visit myself. I'm looking excited to hang with him and take a little trip for the family.

Coming up I have NO convention appearances. People keep asking me. I'm not going to any comic cons for a long while. Next show I do will be a book focused indie show. Not sure when that will be but I just want to spend some time with myself chasing the whimsies, doing domestic duties and producing work. I'm still writing, drawing, etc. But at a snail's pace. I hope you all understand.

Anyway, back to my dark cave until I have something new to say. I hope life continues to treat all of you well. My love to all of you!

--T

Days Drifting By

Hello my friends. Welcome back.

Well, we're into 2016 and so far the world hasn't blown up... yet. Wait til closer to election time. Man is it gonna be a year of online back and forth. I should go ahead and quit the facebook already. But who am I kidding? I self impose breaks from it and it lasts about a week. Its just too convenient an outlet to make your voice heard to those who care about you and to keep in touch with those who might. I think I've weeded out all the bad apples pretty much. I'm lucky in that when my friends do have differing opinions, that they don't vocally try to smash what I say, and I don't do it back to them. Tis a good thing to make your voice heard. But ultimately, its at the voting booth where you need to be the most vocal. Write in your choice and use your voice. Its our right. But be assured of the facts and not just what you hear. Do some research and soul searching. Kay?

I've been hip deep into long work weeks. My sleep is all over the place and I'm pretty out of it most of the time. All my free time is mostly gone so I try to stay sane during the hours at the job. But I've been coming up with lyrics and new song ideas for a new Idiothead project. I've also been listening to some new music like Big Black, Shellac, Peaches, Neal Morse stuff, Gwar, etc. And out of those things are coming new ideas. Shane and I are talking daily about doing some new recording and we already got a date lined up to get together and see what we can get done. My initial idea is to re-record a couple of our older tunes, clean up some old ones and record some new ones. I plan to maybe get an amp and some effects pedals possibly for the house soon. Been a long time since I sold my amp and I need a new one. A small one, but one I can use with Garage Band. Its wonderful what you can do nowadays. But rest assured, new music is finally coming. I got the bug to record, big time. I haven't recorded an album since 2005. Took 11 years, but I'm back to it. Most of you probably haven't heard any of my band's recordings. But you will. This year we'll make it happen. I'm picturing digital downloads, possibly even a vinyl release. HUGE expense that might not pay off, but fuck it. To have a vinyl record of my songs? That would be awesome! We'll see.

I had my kids three days over New Years. Its amazing how much they are growing up. My oldest son turns 16 February 2nd. That's just... wow! Hopefully the weather cooperates and I can trek over to see him soon. But the boys are all doing pretty well...

I know what you are thinking... what about the COMICS!?!?!?

Well, its still going. Slowly. I get a few pages colored here and there and then stop. Last week I inked a few more pages and light penciled a couple. I'm still rolling. Just not as intense as I used to. I'm sure soon I will get back into a rhythm. I've just been working a lot of hours at the day job and when I have had free time over the holidays I was always doing something. Not a bad thing to make new memories and have new experiences. I need that in my life.

The death of Lemmy from Motorhead really has got me down a bit. I was reading some quotes from him the other day and he said, "Nobody seems to enjoy themselves anymore. They are all knocking each other down for enjoying themselves." Reminds me of all the click bait articles and back and forth about Star Wars: The Force Awakens. Like, no one can just go and have a good time anymore or enjoy things on a basic level. I've been guilty of over analyzing things. Shit, that's my middle fucking name! But the noise of people wanting to just shit on everything is just too much sometimes. It seeps into our brain and makes us jaded assholes. If you let it. Just be mindful that things could be so much worse and we could be getting utter shit for entertainment. Be grateful for what we have, and that we even get to take part in it. There's always something good to take from something.

For example: Everyone dislikes the Star Wars prequels right? Well, still, we got some great new John Williams music out of the movies. So there's that. See? Just try to come to the table and enjoy some of what you are served. Don't gorge and hate yourself for it. Sample and try. Cause you get to.

Shifting gears back to me: I am slowly coming out of the major depression I have been in since October. Things are getting better and thank Christ for that. I'm trying to keep on the positive path every day. I'm doing a lot of reading and soul searching. Necessary. Hopefully this continues. I want it to. The world needs me around to kick its ass into gear. And the drive and desire is slowly returning. Things are looking up and that's a damn good thing. I have goals and the ideas and want to achieve them. I think the next few months of my life are going to be very interesting.

One thing I have in my head is this extreme desire to own my own home. My credit is shot. My chances are slim, but one day within five years at the most, I want to be a home owner. I have tons and tons of photos of what I want the interior to look like. I watch a ton of home buying and renovating shows. I'm addicted to it. I want the pride and the safe zone of owning something big like that. Something that is MINE and cannot go away. I have outlined a plan to get it done. It is doable. And if the drive is strong enough, it will happen. I want a place for my kids to sleep, rather than the floor. I want a place I can paint and decorate myself, how I want it to look. I show off my ideas and people make fun of me for my tastes. But that's okay. My dreams cannot be squashed in this. I'm gonna make it happen. Mark my words here: within five years, I will own my own home. Fuck renting and apartments. I'll mow my lawn with pride! I'm gonna earn that for myself. Fuck yeah.

Anyway, those are all my thoughts lately. My brain is happy and things are rolling along. I'm tired but still driven at the end of the day. I'm sad but I'm smiling.

Sometimes that's all you need to get you through.

Cheers, T

Lonely Week pt 2 (Getting Back in Gear)

Hey folks. So begins week #2 of the wife being gone and I'm the main man in the house. I've spent most of my weekend working the day job, sleeping when I can and taking care of poor little Scotty, who battled the flu. I had a bad stomach virus on Friday/Saturday as well. I also spent times keeping the house clean, and cleaning up surprise messes like this:

Yeah, some laundry detergent spilled. Great!

I'm getting excited for the holiday season. So much so that I already decorated the house a bit for Halloween. James helped out too...

I forgot to mention that I did a show flyer for my pal Corey's band NAGAZI. You can see them at Rubbles in Mt. Pleasant coming up this Sept. 20th. 

But finally after weeks and weeks of domestic bliss, I am getting back into the swing of production. No more am I doing minor things about once a week. I am kinda getting back into a groove. It feels nice. This week I dropped some flat colors on Starslam for the eventual Kickstarter. No timetable on that, but its coming. I gotta say, I re-looked over the pages and it really came together quite nicely. I'm very proud of the story! So I got about 70 pages to color there and then recolor the first 70 pages. Then letter the last 70 and its all done after formatting. So, its by no means done. But on its way.

I've also been able to do some sketch cards here and there. I showed some of my Return of the Jedi 30th Anniversary card set cards a while back but I didn't show off the prop close ups of the cut outs of Ewok fur and Jabba's Sail Barge pieces I got to draw on. Here ya go:

I finished one MARVEL CARD set last week. (sorry I cannot show pics of those yet) And this week, I got my next assignment...

Spoilers of things to come!!!

Anyway, I'm on another Star Wars set, then two more Marvel Sets after that. I signed all the contracts today in fact. We're rolling. So HOPEFULLY somewhere in there, I can keep up with my shit too. I'll likely do some days on cards, some on writing, some on coloring. The next three months I hope are filled with HEAVY PRODUCTION out of me. And we'll see what I emerge with come January. I've got no shows till next summer most likely, so the focus is all on getting my shit done and off my TO DO list... which is massive and intimidating. I also have minor plans for side projects/books to do in-between all of this. I like a lot of pots on my stove, folks. I think with as crazy as 2014 has been for me personally, you'll see an immediate explosion from me in 2015. Sexy time explosion. Lets hope I can emerge triumphant.

Lately, I have begun to feel like my old self again. Reconnecting. Making new plans. Taking care of shitty business. And while life keeps throwing more shit my way, more bills and surprise expenses...etc, I yell back loud at the universe to say I'm still standing here. Keep throwing it at me. Give me what you got!!! You can't take me down, fuckers!

Anyway, no timetable. No limitations. No grand promises. Lets just get to work.

Cheers, T

My Dream Home

This is the most unrelated to comics, music or anything blog I have wrote on here in a while. Its about my own dreams and desires of owning a home. For years I've been against the idea. To think to have to pay taxes, do yardwork, etc... just NEVER appealed to me. But the reality of paying a rediculous amount in rent over the years and nothing to show for it kind of bugs me. It would be ideal to have to some place to call my own, and something to leave the kids when I go. Plus, I've always dreamed of building my own little private "Xanadu" that I'd never leave because it was so awesome there.

Renting sucks. You cannot renovate or paint things how you want. It sort of never feels like "home." Well, the wife and I decided a couple years ago that owning a home would be a great goal to have. And ever since I became addicted to house hunting shows on tv and looking up home decorating ideas.

Admittedly, a lot of the pics and plans I see never have my style in mind. But every now and then I see some idea for home decoration that really jazzes me up. I thought I'd share some of the pics I keep in a special folder that I hope to possibly one day implement in a home of my own. My DREAM HOME, if you like.

I LOVE this bedroom. Really makes you feel saucy, eh? I don't know if its right for me, but I love the velvets and darker tones. Thats a place where I could get some business done! I love color combos of red/blacks or blacks/purples/pinks... as you'll see as we move on.

This is an ideal office for making funny books and writing. All nicely organized and a black/white scheme to fit with "comics." Original art on the wall. Artbooks everywhere and a nice sturdy table to work on. Peaceful.

As I said I LOVE Purples/blacks. Silvers go good with it too. I love this room!

More of it. Tell me that velvet wallpaper isn't super dope as fuck!

In my dream home, I want a big livable basement. I'd love a media room of sorts, with game tables, pinball and a couple standup arcade games. Maybe a jukebox. Some place I'd never want to leave. Obviously me being a hardcore old school gamer, that would have to represent too. I could paint one wall something like this. That would be awesome!

This is perfect! HUGE couch, a bar to set up and watch the game at. I'd watch EVERYTHING here.

More traditional, but I love the idea of this book reading spot. Maybe some place to take a nap or daydream.

One major part of a potential home is how to display my collectibles. This person has the right idea! (I'm soooooo jealous of some of this person's aquirements!)

Another bedroom with the same colors I dig. Dig that satin and velvet on the bed! I'd never get out of bed.

A great idea for a gaming table to bring friends over to enjoy the game while we play poker or Cards Against Humanity. Or D&D or a classic board game with the family. That would be great! Again, love the purple!

This bedroom would NEVER happen in a million years for me but still I think its the most beautiful thing ever. I'd be scared that the glass would crack in the night. Haven't people seen Jaws 3???? Also, you'd be doing the nasty and look over and a fish would be watching you. That would be weird.

Lastly another living room idea. If I had a castle, I'd sooooo do this. I like the purple/grey tones to the book case. Really a neat idea.